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This section is about me, you and this web site.

Revised: 10/13/07

About Me: all of the details that you have been asking about; An extension of my BIO. 

About You: includes stats like, from where you are linking to me, what keywords are used to find this site as well as some of the E-mail that I have received, and anything else, that I can think of, that you may find of interest about the visitors to this site. 

About The Web Site, includes things such as, how long it takes to load various pages, how I make the backgrounds and other things about the site itself, that you have been asking about.

This page will continue to evolve.

Look for the latest information toward the bottom of the page but there are updated notes throughout.

About Me:

Where Cross dressing came from, for me

The following was written three years before my final divorce (we reconciled once). The tense has been changed to reflect it now as history.

The wife or someone must have  noticed “something” happening in a CD way about me:  I don’t think it was obvious.. I grew up thinking the stereotyped gay person was a sissy and did not want an association with them. I’m not macho, never been a jock but have always been kind, sensitive and loving. Never a back-stabber, very up-front and a leader. Not effeminate, if someone crossed their legs like a girl, they were a sissy. I stopped myself from doing that; fought it. Was that denial? Always loved women, loved the clothes on them and was a “sweet guy”. After years of the sex revolution during the 60’s and 70’s, I settled down and got married but felt pressured into it. She was worried about her biological clock and made me feel the same but we were going to start a family.

After 3 years of marriage, 7 living together and 5 years after our first born, I nearly split after another argument. We made up and had another child. There was no romance, as much as I tried to make happen, we rarely made love as it was once every three months our entire marriage. For two years we had none at all.

I don’t know that we ever had real love. She did the minimum, nothing more, a lot of times less. I felt I was just a convenience, used and controlled. I had been in relationships where I felt closer to my partner than I did to her. Mostly I felt so alone, neglected, unloved and everything she did was out of “duty”.

I wanted more.

25 years of history with her. I felt I would die never having been truly loved and began to want to break free. Cross dressing came from this extreme frustration two years before the first divorce.

Sizes:

I am 6'1",  weigh 176 pounds and my goal is to be 165 pounds. Back 20 years ago I weighed 140 - 160 pounds and drank beer. I was always thin. I wear a size 10 or 11  ladies shoe, size 10-12 misses skirt or dress, a 36B bra and a medium or size 10 misses top.

TV:

I like Eyes, Medium, 24, Desperate Housewives, Cold Case, Alias, CSI, and movies on DVD. I watch the shows usually after they originally air by way of a DVR (TiVO).

Drinking And Eating:

I try to snack on oranges, apples and cheese (with wine), drink lots of water, even when I am out. Mexican or Italian foods are fun; I try to keep my carbs low, minimizing caffeine and sugars (use Equal), don't drink sodas and stay active.

Personality:

I love romantic meals and being romantic. Sensitive to others, I consider myself a kind and good person, some say sweet. I'm a Libra with a very full heart who enjoys candlelight, affirmations and walking along the sands, preferably with a special woman. 

I dress from the soul that which defines me-the sensuality, sensitivity and nurturing. I have a giving spirit and yearn to express myself. I want to be with women, one woman. This would be my soul mate who I would adore. We would sit by the fire or stroll on the sandy beach, perhaps enjoy a picnic or run through fields in the sunshine in feminine skirts or dresses. Many do not understand; they wonder am I gay? No.

Around The House:

I do the grocery shopping, cook the meals, the laundry and do ironing. I like doing these things. I want to learn sewing just because it would be so practical to have this skill.

Clothes:

My male clothes used to be jeans, denim shirts (winter), pull-overs or T's with gym shoes. I'd wear a dressier shirt and Dockers-style pants sometimes and casual-type shoes, maybe open-toed sandals too if not wearing nail polish -but usually was, OPI's Nail Envy", it was mostly invisible! I rarely wore a suit. I hated to dress up-as a man! Funny, I love dressing as a woman all really nice.

Feminine clothing comes from catalogs and local stores such as Victoria's Secret, J.C. Penny's, Newport News, department stores and wherever actually. I love shopping! I have found some buys at thrift stores; this as an excellent source for most of you to but bulk or to catch up on some things in a hurry.

I love cosmetics! My favorite brand is MAC but I will go drugstore types as well sometimes such as L'Oreal, Revlon, cover Girl and so on.

To get ready to go out for an evening including shower, picking out what to wear, make up, shaving, jewelry, hair, etc used to take 2 hours. Now I can get ready in pretty short order. The longest and hardest part is deciding what to wear!

Hobbies:

Playing drums, sitting in with other bands or jamming out a couple nights a week. I like the music of Sarah McLachlan ( "Surfacing" and "Lilith Fair" albums), Mariah Carey ("Hero," "I Don't Wanna Cry"), Sheryl Crow, Melissa Etheridge, Heart ("The Road Home") and other favorites as well such as Sue Foley, The Beatles, especially John Lennon, Neil Young Pink Floyd, the '60's, alternative and the blues.

Work:

Help Desk Specialist and Customer Service by day and makeup artist, musician, web designer; more a creative person, by night and weekends. I keep myself very busy! I am on the radio and write/edit the newsletter for the local TG support group group in town, either doing a lot of makeovers or teaching skin care and makeup technique throughout the area when not doing weddings, in a film (as key makeup artist), working with photographers or playing music somewhere.

I'm a GIRL?

My mother's OB-GYN told her to expect a baby girl. That would be me, lol. I think because I had a faint heart beat; they didn't have the fancy medical they have now to use, so based on the information the doctor gave them, my parents built a house with a bedroom for me and moved in just in time before I was born two months later! I was to be their daughter!! Oh I wish I had been born a girl!

My Theme Song:

HERO
(Lyrics: M. Carey / Music: M. Carey - W. Afanasieff)

There's a hero 
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

About You

The following are snapshots of how this site has evolved over the years

Loading Speed Results for http://jenellerose.com April, 2006

Checked From	Time (US/Central)	Result	KBytes	Seconds	Kbps
Washington, DC (3 Mbps)	13:47:11	OK	31.09	0.25	995
Los Angeles, CA (1.5 Mbps)	13:45:12	OK	31.09	0.64	388
Dortmund, Germany (5 Mbps)	13:45:17	OK	31.09	0.61	408
Detroit, MI (5 Mbps)	13:21:23	OK	31.09	0.25	995
Chicago, IL (45 Mbps)	13:45:26	OK	31.09	0.22	1,137
St. Petersburg, Russia (5 Mbps)	13:45:25	OK	31.09	1.09	227
Gloucester, UK (5 Mbps)	13:45:24	OK	31.09	0.47	531
Sydney, Australia (5 Mbps)	13:45:25	OK	31.09	1.84	135

8/31/2002

 

	Screen Resolution
	800*600	4305
	1024*768	1574
	640*480	988
	1280*1024	166
	1152*864	85
	832*624	50
	800*553	41
	1024*721	22
	960*720	11
	1152*870	9
	1600*1200	7

 

	Screen Colors
	16 bit	4033
	32 bit	1466
	24 bit	888
	8 bit	864
	1 bit	7

 

Hits per month (year 2001)

Month

Graph

Hits

Percentage

	january		5813	5.4 %
	february		6285	5.8 %
	march		8367	7.7 %
	april		8528	7.9 %
	may		9409	8.7 %
	june		18835	17.5 %
	july		15417	14.3 %
	august		16624	15.4 %
	september		18245	16.9 %
	october		0	0 %
	november		0	0 %
	december		0	0 %

  January 2001