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Survey #5-TS ResultsSo far as of 3/15/2003-early sampling only (survey one month on-line) NAME: Barbara Allen GOD_a_woman_commentsGod has no Gender most_important_in_a_partnerUnderstanding and companionship have_or_seek_many_partnersNO alone_more_committed_relationship_since_transitioned_comments
How_arrived_at_gender_hopes_for_futureSRS was comoleted in 2002 activities_participate_in_local_t_orgMtgs and social How_could_support_groups_be_betterMore informative and opportunities for learning and experience attended_t_conventions_Which_onesSCC get_out_of_t_conventionsContacts and experience physical_attributes_first_noticed_in_man_or_womanWomen - size and carriage Man - size and carriage next_thought_men_or_womenLife style / class What_about_men_or_women_admired_fascinated_byTheir self confidence and personality important_to_you_makes_you_happyAcceptance and involvement with life interpretation_of_bondage_and_dominationFetish How_pick_fem_name_and_any_significanceHigh school experiences Concerning_relationships_with_immediate_family_include_children_how_goneI have been rejected by my ex and both daughters. share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_on_relationshipsI believe in marriage and committed relationships. share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_about_the_process_of_transiOther than the divorce and family relationship with children, it went smoothly. Share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_about_hormone_therapy_whether_prescrHRT is heaven. Encounters_with_FtM_or_experiences_with_Preferred_Gender_IdentityI met and shared surgery experiences with FtM while up in Montreal. They have it tougher would_like_to_further_enhance_my_appearance_howDieting and exercise. Liposuction MAYBE a face lift. How_deal_with_menAs any women would. Specific_kinds_of_TG_info_like_to_see_more_ofTS Experiences What_do_you_think_of_this_siteExcellent
NAME: Jamie thoughts_feelings_on_religion_genderI know God loves me even if I am Transgended gender_is_spiritual_quest_CommentsI have that I was a female my whole life, Nothing has stopped this feeling.(Military,Sports,etc.....) most_important_in_a_partnerSomeone who will love and understand me and my problem. have_or_seek_many_partnersNo. How_arrived_at_gender_hopes_for_futureI have been getting theapy for it. And was diagnosed of it. best_TG_information_commentsAlso some doctors. S39I was suprised that my local library had "Trueselves" in it. I live in a small town. physical_attributes_first_noticed_in_man_or_womanMan has more mussle mass than women. next_thought_men_or_womenDifferent overall body shape. What_about_men_or_women_admired_fascinated_byI have no answer. important_to_you_makes_you_happyBeing happy with who I am, not what I am suppose to be. interpretation_of_bondage_and_domination
How_pick_fem_name_and_any_significanceI am just using the feminine of my name, Until I choose the final one. Classify_yourself_primarily_commentsAs each day passes I see me at a point that I see changes in me. Concerning_relationships_with_immediate_family_include_children_how_goneThey think I am crazy. share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_on_relationshipsMy son knows and excepts me for who I am. That made me happy share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_about_the_process_of_transiThe big barrier was when I realized that I am TG and stop fighting it. Share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_about_hormone_therapy_whether_prescrI take aldactone and herbal substitute. I am waiting to get my letter. Encounters_with_FtM_or_experiences_with_Preferred_Gender_IdentityWe have another TG in our community, She knows about me, but I only talked with about this. You have to be careful because she has seen alot of Discremination. would_like_to_further_enhance_my_appearance_howI would someday have implants. most_want_to_be_TGirlTerri O'connell biggest_Tgirl_influenceCristina Jorgenson. How_deal_with_menA void putting myself into situations. What_do_you_think_of_this_siteI like it!
NAME: Arianna parent_provided_positive_attitude_on_biological_sex_CommentsMy father was an abusive tyrant who rejected and physically abused me often, not a pleasant example of masculinity him! thoughts_feelings_on_religion_gender
What_makes_a_person_feminine_Commentsi am a perfect example as my brain and emotions are wired to very feminine levels but physically i have some male characteristics GOD_a_woman_commentsGod is Spirit most_important_in_a_partneri look for dominant take charge guys who know what they want have_or_seek_many_partnersi am extremely attracted to men and i think i would have a hard time settling for one guy. alone_more_committed_relationship_since_transitioned_commentsi think most men today like macho men and are not interested in a man like me with a lot of feminine characteristics but only a few masculine ones. How_arrived_at_gender_hopes_for_futurei am still searching and have made a few conclusions but not enough, i know i am attracted only to men but i don't identify as gay??? enough_educational_support_information_commentsi am still searching and this is how i discovered this site activities_participate_in_local_t_orgi participate in forums,3 at this time How_could_support_groups_be_better
why_not_been_to_support_groupi am afraid to come out physical_attributes_first_noticed_in_man_or_womani like a man with a take charge personality who would sweep me off my feet next_thought_men_or_womennaughty thoughts about him and i What_about_men_or_women_admired_fascinated_byHonestly, i am fascinated by feminine women admiring and wishing to emulate their femininity. I admire men who are agressive and dominant and take what they want... from someone willing to allow then to take what they want of course! put_ahead_women_or_men_commentsi only admire femininity in women which i don't find in too many women these days. i am more caring feeling and emotional then any oif the women i have ever met. important_to_you_makes_you_happyfemininity in myself and others especially women is very important and real masculinity in mewn is important as well interpretation_of_bondage_and_dominationi don't think there is a link How_pick_fem_name_and_any_significanceit is beautiful and feminine and reflects how i would be as a woman. Classify_yourself_primarily_commentsi was born with male stuff but i have always identified far better with females then males. my brain and emotions are wired extremely feminine and i love this about me I_consider_myself_commentsi still have male stuff and love men as emotional and physical partners so i could be Gay but then i am not and have never been much of a man so maybe my love for men makes me hetro from the femininity that is mainly me!!! Concerning_relationships_with_immediate_family_include_children_how_goneThey know to a degree share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_on_relationshipsi have had painful unfulfilling and unpleasant physical and emotional relationships with women in the past. i no longer have desires for women in this way but for men. i have never had a romantic or physical relationship with a man but i yearn for one!! share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_about_the_process_of_transistill working on it but transexual as a term pleases me and fits the best. Share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_about_hormone_therapy_whether_prescri never tried but i am thinking about it. Encounters_with_FtM_or_experiences_with_Preferred_Gender_Identityi have been corresponding w/m-f transexuals and with a therapist and i find i enjoy admitting to them and myself my identity quest. would_like_to_further_enhance_my_appearance_howi want to but probably can't times_a_day_think_about_sex_Commentsi have been thinking a lot about men lately especially since i am coming to terms with the real me. take_pill_to_do_away_with_TG_orientation_Commentsi would rather take a pill that would make me a total woman and attractive too most_want_to_be_TGirlunknown biggest_Tgirl_influenceWal Torres How_deal_with_meni dream about being with them Specific_kinds_of_TG_info_like_to_see_more_ofmore tests on masculinity/ femininity so questioning people like myself coud become more aware of our identities, the ones i have taken have helped me a lot. What_can_be_done_to_increase_usefulness_of_info
Have_visits_to_TG_sites_enabled_you_to_better_understand_her_Commentsi don't have a SO but wish i had him Positives_negatives_of_photo_galleriesno affect been_harassed_bothered_on_Internet_Commentsi belonged to a site and one guys comment to me scared me enough to quit the site. What_do_you_think_of_this_sitei think it is very helpful and i think surveys are important for self expression other_suggestions_contributions_additions
want_to_see_in_picturesi like pictures but they are of asthetic value only to me qualities_you_find_most_valuable_at_this_siteSurveys Why_would_you_return_to_this_sitesee if there are new surveys or new questions in old plus this site has a wealth of links to very good sites.
NAME: Chris McLane most_important_in_a_partnerloyalty have_or_seek_many_partnersno why_not_been_to_support_groupcan't pass - don't go out in public attended_t_conventions_Which_onesno physical_attributes_first_noticed_in_man_or_womanlegs would_like_to_further_enhance_my_appearance_howlose weight What_do_you_think_of_this_siteToo soon to tell, but first impression is positive want_to_see_in_picturesscantily dressed but no genitalis exposed - heels and hose - full length shots
NAME: Erika parent_provided_positive_attitude_on_biological_sex_CommentsDon't quite understand the question. If you mean role models, dad was an outwardly timid, cowardly individual with a cruel streak. Mom was dominant, and while allegedly raising me to be a "clean cut kid" she really instilled in me a sort of code of conduct that fits a respectable lady of the early 20th century Europe. thoughts_feelings_on_religion_genderI still have a religious streak left over from my born-againner days... while as a male I might say I want to be like Jesus, now I'd probably like to be the kind of girl he'd take home to meet his dad... gender_is_spiritual_quest_CommentsKinda-sorta... trying to get to know *me*. I'm probably the hardest person to figure out that I've ever met. What_makes_a_person_feminine_Commentsnuff said... GOD_a_woman_commentsSpirits don't have genders. I could just as comfortably say I'd like to be the sort of girl Jesus would take home to see his mom. most_important_in_a_partnerWarm hearted, safe, *nice" have_or_seek_many_partnersno partners, don't seek any... alone_more_committed_relationship_since_transitioned_commentshard to say, since now that the hormones have really started kicking in, I have almost no sex drive How_arrived_at_gender_hopes_for_futurea "Paul on the Damascus Autobahn" experience last October. My hopes? To go full time, and one day soon, never, ever *have* to wipe off my makeup again! best_TG_information_commentsI've seen almost no books with any TG info, just one in Borders, besides "Kitchen" enough_educational_support_information_commentsBy now, yes... between your site, www.transgendercare.com and annelawrence.com activities_participate_in_local_t_orgnone... How_could_support_groups_be_bettercn't say, sorry... why_not_been_to_support_grouptoo many questions from relatives attended_t_conventions_Which_onesnone get_out_of_t_conventionsnone physical_attributes_first_noticed_in_man_or_womaneyes, hair, sometimes breasts on a girl next_thought_men_or_womeneyes (how pretty, how the hell did she get that eyeliner on??!! or what big bags you have...) hair (wish I had more of my own...) breasts (nice... s##t, she noticed you're looking at them...pretend you didn't see them! but jeez I wish mine were as big!) What_about_men_or_women_admired_fascinated_bynon physical... bravery (both genders) gentility, caring, truthfulness (both genders) how grrls manage to get mascara and eyeliner on like that! Mine looks like crap! put_ahead_women_or_men_commentsWomen are generally more truthful, more caring, nurturing, open than men. Deeper too. Everyone knows all guys want is a f##k. important_to_you_makes_you_happybeing creative, expressing myself, finding love, or at least the hope of finding it one day keeps me happy interpretation_of_bondage_and_dominationbondage and domination is erotically powerful, seductive in it's own right, also, thanks to pop culture, many people have come in contact with it. Perhaps many CD's and tee-grrls have grown up in sexually repressive homes, and rather than sexuality being expressed naturally, it winds up becoming expressed in a way that is heavily laced with guilt, feelngs of sin, that sort of thing. Appetites are reduced to dark cravings to be kept hidden. Perhaps some MtF's fantasize having a sub-miss so intensely, or for so long, they are driven to act out the sub-miss role themselves. I know that's where I have been, and where I'd be, if there was any drive left How_pick_fem_name_and_any_significanceErika just occured to me. Genetically I am Polish, 1/8 Jewish, and possibly 1/4 Ukrainian... attitudes, and how I look, I'm German. People say I look German, I've always wanted to look like the St. Pauli girl, or have her, haha! Love that outfit too, lol! Seriously, things Germanic have fascinated me a long time before *the experience* Classify_yourself_primarily_commentsBeen on hormones since 1/3/03. First progynova (6-8mg/day) and spirolactone (200mg/day) now it's premarin (5mg/day), which is no lady! Makes me nauseous sometimes which progynova didn't do to me... my boobs have been sprouting the past 2 weeks now, and I feel hardness in the spots, so *something's* growing there (hope they're not baby aliens, haha!) I_consider_myself_commentsI don't mind guys per se, but prefer girls, sisters are so much more fun to talk with! Guys... well, some are scary as hell. Concerning_relationships_with_immediate_family_include_children_how_goneparents and one brother are out of the loop. One brother knows, my sis knows. I spent an afternoon at brother's place, en femme, in front of his friends share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_on_relationshipsbeen in two relationships with girls, real time, one was very short... she only wanted a baby, the other didn't know what she wanted, or I wasn't listening, and she went back to her ex. Been in some online relationships, one lasted about 3 weeks, and scared me share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_about_the_process_of_transiIt's scary, and there are moments where I am sad, because I wish I didn't feel this way, wish I wasn't born a male, wish I didn't have to hide and yet wish I could run away from everybody and have a place all to myself... all at the same time. Share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_about_hormone_therapy_whether_prescrKids, don't try this at home! Erika is a self-trained un-professional! Seriously, from what I've heard, most docs are too focused on the gate-keeper role, which has been made superfluous thanks to the internet. So, either they focus on helping, or us grrls will simply quietly keep self-medicating. Sure, some of us will die, but it's our bodies, our choice, and if the alternative is to go on living in bodies that are incongruous with our natures, then maybe it's worth the risk... Not that I'd ever seriously recommend it. I'd recommend that one do one's own reading, make up one's own mind. Encounters_with_FtM_or_experiences_with_Preferred_Gender_Identity
would_like_to_further_enhance_my_appearance_howelectrolysis is at the top of the list, merely mowing my face, even with your tips, Jenelle, isn't enough. next, doing something where maybe I won't need to wear a wig, but go to sleep, wake up looking like *me* times_a_day_think_about_sex_CommentsSince the hormones have started kicking in, I think about it sometimes, then try... you know... then get tired of trying and give up, then step out for a cigarette take_pill_to_do_away_with_TG_orientation_Commentsthe sadness described in earlier comments comes in only temporary fits. If I had a moment to consider taking such a pill, the doc would get the big finger instead. most_want_to_be_TGirlWell, you're way, way up there... but here is no single most wanted to be like tee-grrl biggest_Tgirl_influenceThere is no single biggest influence... how can I be me, if I'm trying to be someone else? How_deal_with_menkeep a round in the chamber and the safety off...? Just kidding, haha! I've been spooked by a couple of too-nice internet beaus in the Yahoo chats, so I avoid getting close or too friendly on the net. Real time, the only guys I've ever met realtime en femme are gay, "Bears"... I'm relatively safe in a room full of "bears" as long as I stay en femme. ever_harassed_afraid_made_uncomfortable_Commentsone weirdsmobile in the Yahoo chats kept nagging me so desperately sounding, begging me to call him on the phone, and then when he told me he really wanted to meet me before meeting other tee-grrls, and referred to me as a prospect, and other things. I bowed out of there entirely for a while, then when it felt safe, put up a new page with a new name, and I NEVER go in the chats again! Specific_kinds_of_TG_info_like_to_see_more_ofMore on medical professionals in the Chicago area whose practices are related to the transgendered, and/or who are friendly to us grrls What_can_be_done_to_increase_usefulness_of_infohonestly didn't think about that Have_visits_to_TG_sites_enabled_you_to_better_understand_her_Commentsno S/O... Positives_negatives_of_photo_galleriessome grrls dress really slutty, some even have pay sites like the dirty gee-girl sites. Some grrls really need to try harder to look feminine. I mean, it's great that even in this way, they're coming out, and I never tell a sister she's ugly, even if she is, but sometimes it's a hard temptation to resist, even though I'm not necessarily Dina Meyer myself. Those are the negatives... the positives are that at least in some way, many of us grrls can come out, get compliments, some measure of acceptance, compare looks (we're so-o-o-o vain!) while keeping the cattiness at home been_harassed_bothered_on_Internet_Commentsnut case mentioned above What_do_you_think_of_this_siteI still love it other_suggestions_contributions_additionsuh... yeah, more pix! Update the links, cuz some of them I remembered seeing were broken want_to_see_in_picturesMore of them! Then, well, teribear.com has a sister's gallery (I'm on page 12, heehee! Told ya I'm vain!) so maybe you might want to open up a sisters gallery qualities_you_find_most_valuable_at_this_siteThe articles on stealth and personal security. They've kept me from getting myself really hurt. Why_would_you_return_to_this_siteloyalty, checking to see what's new, cartoons, more pix additional_questions_ask_or_omit_in_futurenot sure... NAME: Alex parent_provided_positive_attitude_on_biological_sex_Commentsnone thoughts_feelings_on_religion_gender
most_important_in_a_partnertrust have_or_seek_many_partnersno How_arrived_at_gender_hopes_for_futureresearch, haveing my girl know how I feel. Be acceptable as a female. why_not_been_to_support_groupcourage physical_attributes_first_noticed_in_man_or_womanbreast next_thought_men_or_womenI wish I to had breasts What_about_men_or_women_admired_fascinated_bywomen's freedom to flaunt themselves as they choose put_ahead_women_or_men_comments
important_to_you_makes_you_happyFeeling comfortable with my firl also feeling good interpretation_of_bondage_and_dominationnot interested How_pick_fem_name_and_any_significanceHave not picked a name Classify_yourself_primarily_comments
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Concerning_relationships_with_immediate_family_include_children_how_goneno one but my girl knows share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_on_relationshipsI is important to have a person next to you who appreciate's the little things in life and vice/versa share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_about_the_process_of_transiI'm only starting Share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_about_hormone_therapy_whether_prescr
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would_like_to_further_enhance_my_appearance_howHoromones, hair, face, eye brows etc most_want_to_be_TGirlAlyssa Milano biggest_Tgirl_influencenone How_deal_with_mengood ever_harassed_afraid_made_uncomfortable_Comments
Specific_kinds_of_TG_info_like_to_see_more_ofhoromone regimens, and how to conceal yourself (breast etc) until really passing female Positives_negatives_of_photo_galleriesNegative I'm not in this for pornography What_do_you_think_of_this_siteno comment yet want_to_see_in_pictureshow a man can look like a real women and if it looks passable to me qualities_you_find_most_valuable_at_this_site
NAME: Alex parent_provided_positive_attitude_on_biological_sex_Commentsnone most_important_in_a_partnertrust have_or_seek_many_partnersno How_arrived_at_gender_hopes_for_futureresearch, haveing my girl know how I feel. Be acceptable as a female. why_not_been_to_support_groupcourage physical_attributes_first_noticed_in_man_or_womanbreast next_thought_men_or_womenI wish I to had breasts What_about_men_or_women_admired_fascinated_bywomen's freedom to flaunt themselves as they choose important_to_you_makes_you_happyFeeling comfortable with my firl also feeling good interpretation_of_bondage_and_dominationnot interested How_pick_fem_name_and_any_significanceHave not picked a name Concerning_relationships_with_immediate_family_include_children_how_goneno one but my girl knows share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_on_relationshipsI is important to have a person next to you who appreciate's the little things in life and vice/versa share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_about_the_process_of_transiI'm only starting would_like_to_further_enhance_my_appearance_howHoromones, hair, face, eye brows etc most_want_to_be_TGirlAlyssa Milano biggest_Tgirl_influencenone How_deal_with_mengood ever_harassed_afraid_made_uncomfortable_Comments
Specific_kinds_of_TG_info_like_to_see_more_ofhoromone regimens, and how to conceal yourself (breast etc) until really passing female Positives_negatives_of_photo_galleriesNegative I'm not in this for pornography What_do_you_think_of_this_siteno comment yet want_to_see_in_pictureshow a man can look like a real women and if it looks passable to me qualities_you_find_most_valuable_at_this_site
NAME: Laura Jane parent_provided_positive_attitude_on_biological_sex_CommentsI always had insecure about my biologcal sex. Never felt like I fit in. Parents didn't help by being sexually repressed themselves. thoughts_feelings_on_religion_genderMy religion has caused me to have grave guilt feelings about my gender priclivities. AM still religiious, though and still have gender proclivities. gender_is_spiritual_quest_CommentsNever thought of it like that, but I suppose it could be. What_makes_a_person_feminine_CommentsWith me, my looks hav ekept me from further pursuing a feminine appearance. I always felt too masculine looking, although I was a very pretty child. always told I should hav ebeen agirl by my mother's friends. secretly loved that, of course GOD_a_woman_commentsALWAYS pictured God as a man. probably always will. most_important_in_a_partnerMutual understanding of each other's needs. NEED open communications have_or_seek_many_partnersN/A... ahve been and plan to be monogamous alone_more_committed_relationship_since_transitioned_commentsHavne't transitioned. How_arrived_at_gender_hopes_for_futureI could write paragraphs here. Suffice it to say that my main hope is to rid myself of guiult feelings about my gender / sexual orientation. best_TG_information_commentsI need to read more books, on the subject and pplan to. ALso want to get a good therapist to speak to. enough_educational_support_information_commentsAccess is there especially with internet. activities_participate_in_local_t_orgN/A How_could_support_groups_be_betterDon't know yet. why_not_been_to_support_groupWelll, not sure which one would be best. Tri-Ess is one that Ihabve thoughtabout, but they are for heterosexual cd's....notsure what category ia fit in, actually attended_t_conventions_Which_onesNO get_out_of_t_conventionsN/A physical_attributes_first_noticed_in_man_or_womanface, breast area ...legs in a woman. Build, face in a man next_thought_men_or_womenguess i answered that above What_about_men_or_women_admired_fascinated_byin owmen...it's the ability to be themselves more... less facades.. as a man, I fel that Ihave to Prove I am masuline... as a woman, I don't think I would have to prove anything... just be myself put_ahead_women_or_men_commentsalways admired women more. More compassionate and honest with feelings.In my opinion important_to_you_makes_you_happygeneder wise, it is having the time to be myself. I am most at pece with myself when I am dressed and "FEEL" like Laura interpretation_of_bondage_and_dominationI am not versed in bondage or domination, but have had feelings that I would like to be told what to do. I guess the domination appeals to a lot of us, because as males we are expected to be in charge all the time. How_pick_fem_name_and_any_significanceLaura - name of a formetr co-worker, who I thought was exceptinally feminine and beautiful... Jane, because it added a very girlie touch to my personna Classify_yourself_primarily_commentsthis question always confuses me.... that's why I need to speak to a therapist I_consider_myself_commentsNot tht I don't like the answer... but as alaura.. I like both men and women & TG's as a man, I like women.... but always fantasize about being a woman making love with a man...... never acted on the fantsies, though Concerning_relationships_with_immediate_family_include_children_how_goneonly my wife and sister & sisters former girl firend know that I cross dress. No one knows of my TS feelings share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_on_relationshipsWith me, I know that I don't communicate enough with my partner, my wife. I told here years ago about my cross dressing and she has accepted it to a degree, but never dscuses it unless I bring it up and I have always been reluctant to discuss it. I have myself in a "catch 22". share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_about_the_process_of_transinot tansitioning Share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_about_hormone_therapy_whether_prescrno on hormones Encounters_with_FtM_or_experiences_with_Preferred_Gender_IdentityHave none would_like_to_further_enhance_my_appearance_howlose weight...wspecially inches around my waist... t present more suitable femme appearance times_a_day_think_about_sex_CommentsHave been obsessed with sex. every day fantasize about how it owuld be tohave sex as a woman take_pill_to_do_away_with_TG_orientation_Commentsall in all, I wish that I was happy with who I was.... whether it be man or woman most_want_to_be_TGirlJenelle Rose has a great site and I admire her attitude and willingness to share... there are others who I can't think of off hand biggest_Tgirl_influencecan't say one person or another.... internet in general How_deal_with_menIf a man came on to me when I was dressed, I would be very flattered and prbably would succumb to his advances. Hasn't happened dressed, although I have been "picked up" by gay men before. ever_harassed_afraid_made_uncomfortable_Commentshaven;t really been out much as Laura Specific_kinds_of_TG_info_like_to_see_more_ofthere's an awful loout there... can't imgine something that's not there What_can_be_done_to_increase_usefulness_of_infosites like yours are great.... look to your site for info... if I think of something, will email Have_visits_to_TG_sites_enabled_you_to_better_understand_her_Commentsmy SO may suspect that I frequent TG sites on-line, but we haven;t discused it. That's my fault. Positives_negatives_of_photo_galleriesgives me the feeling that I am not alone, plus I ove to look at fashions. before and After photos ebncourage me. What_do_you_think_of_this_siteI love your site, Jenelle. You are soooo sweet to share want_to_see_in_picturesI love lingereie piscs and would love to see more qualities_you_find_most_valuable_at_this_siteadvice, pics, have not been to all parts of your site yet... still exploring Why_would_you_return_to_this_siteyou give frequent updates additional_questions_ask_or_omit_in_futureI am a "tweener" not sure if I am CD, TV, TG, TS...... perhaps a survey that may help girls like me understand where they fit NAME: Marissa Dorothy Kane parent_provided_positive_attitude_on_biological_sex_CommentsI was encouraged to do "male things", but wasn't chastized for doing anything perceived as "feminine". thoughts_feelings_on_religion_genderNo comments gender_is_spiritual_quest_CommentsIt's a self-realization process. Some people are fortunate to know what they want to do and be from day one. Others stuggle to find an inner peace until the day they die. Luckily I found what and who I was before I got too old to do anything about it. What_makes_a_person_feminine_CommentsI've always been feminine inside for as long as I can remember. I've always identified with the feminine gender while tryinf to act masculine. As a kid in grade school, I enjoyed doing more "girl" stuff than "boy" stuff. I only did the "boy" stuff to fit in (which I never did anyhow). GOD_a_woman_commentsI don't believe in one god. I follow in the steps of my American Indian ancestors; there are many gods because as one person cannot handle every task before them at one time, not one god can hadle every task at one time. I believe that there is a single god for a single earth entity. most_important_in_a_partnerKindness, honesty, intelligence and sense of humor. We must all laugh at ourselves, yet be honest when we make a mistake. have_or_seek_many_partnersNo, I am monogamous. alone_more_committed_relationship_since_transitioned_commentsI chose to be in a committed relationship because I was searching for my soulmate. How_arrived_at_gender_hopes_for_futureThrough many boxes of tissues, migranes, and episodes of self-loathing, I finally found the strength to accept who I was and forget society's idea that "a man is a man and a woman is a woman and there's no in-between". best_TG_information_commentsThe internet is littered with ideas (some good, some awful), yet the friends I have chosen in life provide me with the most helpful information because they're all close to me and care for me. enough_educational_support_information_comments
activities_participate_in_local_t_orgI was active with a GLBT organization in college and it was helpful, but where I live, there's no such organization for at least 50 miles and I have not the time nor the desire to drive that far. How_could_support_groups_be_betterSmarter leaders and less-pompous leaders. I've been to meetings where people thump themselves on their chests so hard you thought it was rap music bass. The idea is to humanize yourself, become accessible to others, not pronounce your superiority in the GLBT community. attended_t_conventions_Which_onesNo. physical_attributes_first_noticed_in_man_or_womanIn a woman, I notice their figures and their elegance (so I can incorporate it in my own way). In a man, I notice his face. I love a man with a nice smile. Everything else is gravy. next_thought_men_or_womenHow can I get that man in bed with me?!?! >:) What_about_men_or_women_admired_fascinated_byI am fascinated by women's grace and elegance, and I admire the fact that they work hard to produce their images. Men...hmmm, well, I admire the fact that most of them don't yank their girlfreinds around by their hair anymore! put_ahead_women_or_men_commentsIt's no contest. Women have a lot to handle, and their responsibilities increase as the years pass. 50 years ago, most women were homemakers whose job was to make sure the house was clean, dinner was cooked and the kids were in bed. Now, women have all of that to do plus day/night jobs and running kids around to soccer/baseball/whatever events. important_to_you_makes_you_happyMy self-image is most important, but that comes with a clear conscience and a strong notion of who I am. I know I am not male in my mind, yet I also know that I am not 100% female physically (and never will be). However, I can at least project the image of femininity even with the flaw of being born male, and that's most comforting to me. interpretation_of_bondage_and_dominationI think it's b.s. If people want to believe that we're a part of the B&D community, let them, I don't care. While I do enjoy that part of sexual fun now and then, I never thought of myself as a part of that world. How_pick_fem_name_and_any_significanceI picked Marissa out of the air one day and loved the way it sounded. Kane is the last name of my husband (we have a legal gay union). Dorothy is my great-aunt's name. She was probably the most open and kind person to me when I came out to my family, and to honor her, I use her name as my middle name, and am VERY proud to do so I might add. Classify_yourself_primarily_commentsI am pre-op. I am on hormones but still have the male plumbing (ugh!) I_consider_myself_commentsI AM gay because, physically, I am still a man to a degree and I am in love with another man. I don't mind the label. Concerning_relationships_with_immediate_family_include_children_how_goneWell, as I said, my great-aunt was most supportive. My mom and dad were lukewarm about it but have since come around. My maternal grandparents were totally freaked out about it and my grandfather never came to grips with it. He disowned me. My grandmother still won't see my unless I'm dressed as a male. As for my paternal grandparents, my grandmother never knew (I had rare contact with her anyhow) and my grandfather knows and is indifferent about it. share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_on_relationshipsI could probably write a book on relationships! I have had many failed relationships - both because of me and because of them. My relationships with women failed because of me..because I couldn't be a man with them. My relationships with men failed because of both me and them. Some of them weren't comfortable being gay, some couldn't handle my gender dysphoria, and sometimes I couldn't handle being gay and a TG. It was my husband who helped me get out of the dead-end relationships. He is a very strong man and I'm lucky to have him. share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_about_the_process_of_transiIt's not an easy process, especially in the primary stages. The hormones are difficult to cope with, even for the strongest of people. Even more difficult are the noticable physical changes that you have to hide as a male, and it's sometimes painful to hide growing breasts under male clothes. For me the mentla part was fine because it's what I wanted and I was prepared for that. Share_thoughts_feelings_experiences_about_hormone_therapy_whether_prescrIt's very useful because your body experiences a wealth of change. Physically, emotionally, and physiologically you body changes dramatically and at varying rates. You need someone to discuss these changes, someone to tell you that extreme mood swings are a part of the transitioning, that the pain of budding nipples is normal. It's comforting to have those assurances. Encounters_with_FtM_or_experiences_with_Preferred_Gender_IdentityI've had limited contact with FTM's since I've left college. They're the same as I am, except they're going in a reverse direction than me. I might think "why on earth is she wanting to be me?. I couldn't stand to be male" whereas she's probably thinking the same about me. Funny, though, I had that same conversation with a MTF about 2 years ago. We had a good laugh over a few cups of coffee. would_like_to_further_enhance_my_appearance_howLopping of this unnecessary appendage would be nice ;) I would also like to have fuller hips, and that may or may not happen. If not, I can deal with it. times_a_day_think_about_sex_CommentsOh, I love sex, always have. I can never get enough. Thankfully I have a partner who feels the same. :) take_pill_to_do_away_with_TG_orientation_CommentsI am what I am and will accept it. I could live in denial, but, to me, that's no way to live. I accept all consequences and pitfalls that come with my choices because, to me, the rewards outweigh the pitfalls without question. most_want_to_be_TGirlThat's a toughie. I have always admired Judy Garland and Raquel Welch (popular choices) for their grace and elegance, but I also admire Madonna for her strength of character and no b.s. attitude. biggest_Tgirl_influenceMy friend Janice. She helped me with my image and helping me go in the right direction as far as dealing with my gift (that's what I call my orientation). How_deal_with_menNow I show them my ring. ;) Used to, I'd be upfront with them and tell them that I was a TG/TS and not a GG. Most men appreciated my frankness, some got mad at me for portraying a feminine image (to which I told them to kiss my keester). I know that if I was in their shoes, I'd want to know what I was dealing with. However, I mostly stuck to gay/lesbian/tg bars so if they didn't know I was a male then they were too stupid to get out of their own way. ever_harassed_afraid_made_uncomfortable_CommentsOnce when I was in a restaurant while dating my now-husband, I was accosted by a man who clocked me. Told me I was a "sissy fag" and that my boyfriend ought to be ashamed at himself for being with a "sissy". He was being real beligerant and I thought my husband was going to kill the man. I was literally in tears and we left the restaurant, soon followed by the jerk who accosted me. Thankfully we've since moved and no longer see that man, but we used to now and then and he'd always make sure everyone knew I was a man. To this day I have nightmares about that night. Specific_kinds_of_TG_info_like_to_see_more_ofInformation on how to protect yourself when out on the town, how to dress less conspicuously, and how to deal with the emotions of being a TG. What_can_be_done_to_increase_usefulness_of_infoI think most of the information provided is useful, but at the moment, it's sparse. There are a lot of t-girls out there, but most don't want to offer advice or don't care about others (just a microcosm of the TG world, actually - too many self-centered "queens" and not enough caring girls). Hopefully as time passes there will be more helpful girls around. Have_visits_to_TG_sites_enabled_you_to_better_understand_her_CommentsWe enjoy looking at other TG sites, seeing what others do and how they cope with life. Plus, somewhat to my dismay, my husband likes to compare me. (ugh!) Positives_negatives_of_photo_galleriesTo me, there's two types: "porn photos" and "progression photos". The porn photos don't help others t-girls come out because they feel inferior to those girls (I know this because of personal conversations with others). The progression pics are great because they show how an individual's look/image has changed throught the years. To me that's important because we all start off looking horrible but hopefully evolve into a graceful image that's easy on the eye. I'll admit that during the first 3-6 months that I started using makeup and dressing en femme, I looked like a $2 crack whore. I can look back on that and laugh and ask myself "what was I thinking?!?!?!?". But it's important to see where you were in the beginning to see how much the results have increased. been_harassed_bothered_on_Internet_CommentsI was stalked by a couple of men early on when I wasn't so savvy and was wanting to be loved by someone. Through a lot of name-changing and number chaning, I finally lost them. What_do_you_think_of_this_siteIt's a great site and you seem to have worked very hard to make it look this good. Kudos to you, girl, and keep up the good work! other_suggestions_contributions_additionsnothing jumps at me at the moment. want_to_see_in_picturesI like what you have now, so keep with that same comcept. qualities_you_find_most_valuable_at_this_siteYour links and womanhood pages. Why_would_you_return_to_this_siteUpdates are nice, and I would love to see your progression. Looks like you have worked hard on your image and you present yourself very well. additional_questions_ask_or_omit_in_futureNo ideas here. I like the comprehensiveness that you have already. |
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